Smoking and Drinking

I leave this year with as many thoughts as I have left every year.

I have two exceptions and one (or both) will kill me.

As I grew from pod to man I loved two comics above all. The first was Groucho Marx and his incisive wit and sarcasm fueled the pod-boy to become the man-boy. "Duck Soup" is one of my favorite movies and I can still watch it today with the exhuberance I displayed as a youth. A lot of Groucho's humor was lost upon me, but I loved his mannerisms and his foils. My love for him was cemented when he appeared on Dick Cavett's show. I finally, truly got him.

The second was W.C. Fields (Bill) and my fondness for him was established from his relationship with Edgar Bergen (I love dummies). He had a grace that I appreciated and a wit that was razor like. I love most of his movies, but I especially love the biographies about him (he died eleven years before I was born). He was part of the Hollywood crowd at its heyday and I have a fondness for this because during vacations my dad used to take me to work and he would show me the old Hollywood/Culver City lots and I would dream. While he worked (he was a meat vendor) he thought I was asleep in his work truck. I instead would walk down Hollywood Blvd./Sunset Blvd. In the early hours of a summer morning I would think of all the old stars and it made me happy.

I honor these two men...

I honor dreams.

The past is a reflection.

Happy New Year!


Self (Denial)

     It is not about you! It never has been. If you believe the shit your country told you than you have not learned a thing. It could be about us, but that would involve you thinking about someone but yourself. If you believe yourself someone who believes the government is the problem and then waves little flags to "support the troops" than you have a problem with double-thinking. The people who control the government are the problem.

    Take a second and breathe deep. Why do you hate or love with the passion you do? It may be because of what we are told. Do you know that most of the the crap (news and other such information givers) you see on your teevee, and increasingly your internet, are pure lies. You know this. In the heart that beats, in the lungs that breathe, you know this. Our courts have ruled that news is entertainment and because of this there is no bond between the "news givers" and us to actually tell us the truth. They will continue to tell us to trust them; but really? They are the media and they are beholden to nothing except their profits.

Who, what, where, when and how:

Majority investors in corporations, bankers and their government lapdogs. The media is now almost completely owned by people who are not your friends and will tell you lies to support their lies.

Control of the money.

Started in the UK (one could argue that Spain and Portugal began this trend, but the English understood commerce, as well as the Dutch; the Netherlands was but a small country). England's navy dominated the seas for over 3 centuries. Today, the US military is unsurpassed in expansion of corporate goals; they have had success on our planet for over one hundred years.

From 1492 until now.

A strong navy and control of the oceans and ports is vital. Today it is control of the air (force, satellites and media). Information is critical today as it was in the days of plunderers like Columbus, Cortez and Pizzaro.

Why do we accept plundering?

    We accept the evils of our world because of a hope that will never come (I tend to blame religion on this, but it may be because of our tribal instincts). I may not be perfect in my thoughts, nor am I an idiot, but I believe our worse fears, nightmares and horrors come from our self and the self preservation we attempt to achieve comes through our wisdom. Instead of blaming people who are victims themselves we should focus on the real problem; WEALTH.


The New World Order

Revolution Number Nine

Now, let's see if I (the american) can reach into my cultural steam trunk and fish around for an example of American Exceptionalism. Ah, here it is... Alright, who's been shitting on The Constitution again. Why, the Preamble has a most putrid smell emanating from the brownish smudges that I believe were words at one time.

Is it me? I can no longer tolerate the level of discourse that passes for wisdom in this willfully ignorant nation. WE THE PEOPLE have little or no conception of the reasons we allow governments to be established in the first place. (hint hint: it is not to protect corporations and confuse it with foreign policy.) The stain of complacency, greed and fear has reduced US THE PEOPLE to the role of spectator and a number to be taxed because, face it folks, we are delusional; content in our false belief of greatness and virtue.

Scratched into the drying excrement that covers the first paragraph of The Constitution is:

"New Preamble"
We, the corporate overlords and our lackeys and psychophants, in order to form a more orderly society for our continuing benefit hold that governments must be created to legitimize our plutocratic authority, establish pay as you go, we'll make it up as we go Justice, insure domestic Tranquility by surveillance, random searching, expanding police powers and private security, provide that the commoners in the armed forces will Defend american corporate global interests until they too are privatized, promote the general Welfare by relabeling it special Welfare and using it to enable american corporate global interests, and secure for ourselves the Blessings of Tyranny by mortgaging our posterity and leaving the bill for the people's children and grandchildren and they can secure their own liberties after taxes. We also ordain and establish the right to make shit up and call it defending the Constitution for the USA.

There really are not many options left to us at this late juncture. A "storming the Bastille" moment is needed, yet highly unlikely. Our government has forsaken its people and any pretense of our "noble and just" position in the world is pure crap. The source of our greatness is raw, naked and brutal power. This is compounded by a ruling class that is devoid of originality and a host of lackeys who are quite frankly incompetent. We are definitely in for some interesting times. The elephant, bear, bull and donkey will leave quite a mess before they are through. My hope is that there will be something left. I believe we are at an evolutionary branch where our species' survival will rest on the degree of damage our desperate masters leave in the wake of their demise. The "Resources War" phase of the "Great World War" has begun and I don't believe anyone has noticed.

"You say you want a revolution, well, you know, we all want to change the world."



"They Thought They Were Free: The Germans, 1933-45" by Milton Mayer:

    ..It is clearer all the time that, if you are going to do anything, you must make an occasion to do it, and then you are obviously a troublemaker. So you wait, and you wait.

    "But the one great shocking occasion, when tens or hundreds or thousands will join with you, never comes. That’s the difficulty. If the last and worst act of the whole regime had come immediately after the first and smallest, thousands, yes, millions would have been sufficiently shocked—if, let us say, the gassing of the Jews in ’43 had come immediately after the ‘German Firm’ stickers on the windows of non-Jewish shops in ’33. But of course this isn’t the way it happens. In between come all the hundreds of little steps, some of them imperceptible, each of them preparing you not to be shocked by the next. Step C is not so much worse than Step B, and, if you did not make a stand at Step B, why should you at Step C? And so on to Step D.

    "And one day, too late, your principles, if you were ever sensible of them, all rush in upon you. The burden of self-deception has grown too heavy, and some minor incident, in my case my little boy, hardly more than a baby, saying ‘Jewish swine,’ collapses it all at once, and you see that everything, everything, has changed and changed completely under your nose. The world you live in—your nation, your people—is not the world you were born in at all. The forms are all there, all untouched, all reassuring, the houses, the shops, the jobs, the mealtimes, the visits, the concerts, the cinema, the holidays. But the spirit, which you never noticed because you made the lifelong mistake of identifying it with the forms, is changed. Now you live in a world of hate and fear, and the people who hate and fear do not even know it themselves; when everyone is transformed, no one is transformed. Now you live in a system which rules without responsibility even to God. The system itself could not have intended this in the beginning, but in order to sustain itself it was compelled to go all the way.

    "You have gone almost all the way yourself. Life is a continuing process, a flow, not a succession of acts and events at all. It has flowed to a new level, carrying you with it, without any effort on your part. On this new level you live, you have been living more comfortably every day, with new morals, new principles. You have accepted things you would not have accepted five years ago, a year ago, things that your father, even in Germany, could not have imagined.

    "Suddenly it all comes down, all at once. You see what you are, what you have done, or, more accurately, what you haven’t done (for that was all that was required of most of us: that we do nothing). You remember those early meetings of your department in the university when, if one had stood, others would have stood, perhaps, but no one stood. A small matter, a matter of hiring this man or that, and you hired this one rather than that. You remember everything now, and your heart breaks. Too late. You are compromised beyond repair...



We could be heroes...

A hero is someone who protects the down trodden.

A hero is someone who speaks out against corruption.

War does not create heroes.

War creates death.


The Story


     Most stories end with the protagonist living happily ever after. Most real people's stories begin this way and end with tragedy, bitterness and hate. I have little thought of either. Both are dreams we dreamers love, but know in our hearts are not true. They do make for great drama. The stories we live include elements of both; hate and love intertwine in the tapestry of our lives and if we understand ourselves we "ride it" until the bell.

     This our story. We never ask more than we can give although we pray. Our contradictions make us what we are and we are fools and scholars. Time plays with us and the traps are laid with care and precision. We avoid them at our peril because we have to proceed. Damn your lies and to the perdition with your logic. The many of goodness understand. There will be a balancing some day.

     I miss all of my ancestors. They were real to me and now they are just fleeting thoughts and alive only in my head at night. I miss them all badly and goodly. There is one outstanding tribute I can hold to all (most; some were assholes) of them. LOVE!

     I would die for them; without condition.

     I cry at every closing. Libraries are a link to something we need to know.


The Scratching of Heads

I am happy.

Happiness is relative.

Economic fuck shit is still here.

Don't harbor your joy as complacency.

The meat has been fed to the masses and they will not allow anyone to be less miserable than themselves.

Blowback works in mysterious ways.

I await the inevitable.

as always...

Please be good to each other.

Remember what happens to good people.

Remember what this country is truly about.



I want to begin by saying that every chicken you fuck comes home to roost as a nightmare. The nightmares are different depending how you fucked the chicken, but the nightmares are real and they have teeth.

If you are a misanthrope than you have no bother with poultry. You have your agenda and fuck the rest of us. I have a beef with people I believe still have souls. They might be misbegotten ignorant souls, but they are souls. They generally wave funny flags (american or faux-confederate) and they are sincere. They believe something is wrong and they will listen to any idiot who tells them that they are right and they must be afraid.

I know these people well because they are just like the same people I grew up with who have said we should just get along because rocking the boat will get you NOWHERE. I have rocked what little I could of every boat I have been honored to serve on and The NOWHERE people were right. Keep your head down, pay your taxes, do your job and hope nobody notices you. This is the flag waving American way. This is the best way to success.

Do you see this flag? This is the official, bonafide, dyed-in-the-wool, realistic thing. This is the CONFEDERATE FLAG.

What all of us morons think is dubious at best. It begs the question of the intent of any symbol of hatred. Purists will tell you that the "battle flag" was the true heart of Dixie. I will not post a picture of the "battle flag" because it reminds me of evil. An evil that began over 400 years ago aboard Portuguese and Spanish ships. An evil that is perpetuated everyday in USA because of a right that is only proved through a wrong.

What happens in this country on a daily basis lessens us as humans. The ape man must be replaced by the "true" thinking" man or we will perish.

I learn one lesson over and over again. We must choose.


Business (as usual)

Here and overseas, the entire corporate universe is shot through with metastatic corruption and crime. It is an essential part of the business model almost everywhere, from Wall Street offices to the pitch at Wembley. (Pierce)

I stand in amazement.

I stand in utter amazement

I stand in the shitpile like everyone else.


The Fail is Strong in These Ones

So the only “experts” left standing are those who made all the approved mistakes. It’s kind of a fraternity of failure: men and women united by a shared history of getting everything wrong, and refusing to admit it. Will they get the chance to add more chapters to their reign of error?

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Geniuses Both.

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Meet the Kagans... Read about them at your peril.



I must be a naive and ignorant person. I am not "with-it'. I learned some things long ago. They are irrelevant now.

I am told to teach these "things" now as if they are true. One of these "things" is the Constitution. I am not behind this document one hundred percent, but it does seem to be the basis for law in this land. My favorite part (other than some of the amendments) is the Preamble.

This forms the idea behind the making of the instrument. I have never been a person to take someone's word as golden unless I had some reason to back it up. The Preamble makes the Constitution readable (and possibly doable).

Here is my interpretation of this profane paragraph.

We the people in order to form a more perfect union.

We are a country of individuals who have tried to make government work as individuals, but have failed. We must work together and to this end we must do the following:

1. Establish Justice. Simple enough, fair rules punished consistently with consideration given for unique circumstances. Also, a need for an impartial settling of disputes. Also, the authority given by the people to the state to act upon behaviors which are harmful to people.

2. Insure Domestic Tranquility. Governments rule by consent and to ensure confidence they must adhere to maintaining an environment that is safe and where its citizens are free from tyranny and persecution. Safe at home, work and play.

3. Provide for the Common Defense. This is basically calling on the citizens to serve as a  bulwark organized by the national government so that any invasion upon the soil of the US would be thwarted with minimal loss of life. Defense is a word that speaks volumes about the nature of violence. DEFENSE...

4. Promote the General Welfare. A government must also provide for its less fortunate in their times of need. Today, we would also include education and health care as these will promote and bolster a citizen's sense of caring for all Americans. A truly free and noble nation is one in which there is concern and care for the weakest and the poorest so that they are clothed and fed at the minimum and a place to stay is provided until such time as they can once again contribute to the greater good.

5. Secure the Blessings of Liberty to Ourselves and Our Posterity. By adhering to the above policies by providing a fair and equal footing for all citizens liberty is nourished. The enemy of liberty is uncontrolled power and unchecked authority. If the overly ambitious were left to regulate themselves without checks then liberty would soon be replaced by fear and greed and it would only be a matter of time until the Constitution itself would be worthless. No generation is allowed to mortgage the future for any reason without a means to repay their posterity.

So, in order to create this nation the individual states had to relinquish most of their sovereign power to a central authority to the national government. The states agreed that a federal system was truly a more perfect form of government than the previous one and wisely determined that the newly formed nation would require a centralized control of policy. This, my friends, was the apex of The Enlightenment.

An argument can be attempted by making a general sweeping view that The Enlightenment was a period of intellectual growth in science, politics, philosophy, music, art, literature, etc... such that for the first time the church, and to a lesser part, Royalty, was not a dominant part of a major social and intellectual movement. The people of The Enlightenment had liberated themselves from papal and royal authority and were answerable only to empirical truth in their questioning of the world around them.

Liberty was valued because of the inherent qualities of truth that freed people from the narrow minded dogmatic and despotic authority that had previously ruled their minds and bodies. The secular version of the world was born and despite the continuous assault on liberty by the modern day equivalents of the papacy (church) and aristocracy (corporations) it has endured. I stand in awe of just how extraordinary the makers of this nation were. I stand in utter contempt of the people who use fear and hatred to usurp our liberty in their hyper-ambition to consume more and more of everything as if the Earth was a giant game of monopoly and its inhabitants pawns to be used until sacrificed or destroyed just so that they may have more shiny beads than their neighbor.


Chasing Some Tail

My entire adult life has been witness to the folly of exceptionalism; the grand folly of group think. I watched us glorify embassy workers as heroes because someone fucked up and made them so.

 (The CIA performed a coup to put this asshat in power.)

I watched us elect an imbecilic hater as president and glorify him because of his racist-light rhetoric and his promise to get government off out backs.

I watched as this same president let loose the dogs of war (San Salvador, Guatemala, etc...) and deny involvement with a straight face. I was sickened by our country at this point.

His predecessor was the last person you would put in charge (an ex-CIA director). He pardoned the previous transgressions and led us into a war which our country backed. Yes, America, we  told Saddam he could invade Kuwait. BTW, babies were not being killed by the Iragi Guard. That was american propaganda at its very best. This was the beginning of our never ending war. He raised taxes on rich people and lost his position of power. His family has been war profiteers and war criminals since before WW2. It didn't hurt him or his family at all.

We then elected Republican-Lite (we will soon elect his wife) and got NAFTA. This killed america as an industrial nation. He gutted welfare and led us into glory in the Balkans. His VP had no spine and we got the worst president EVER!

You now live in the wake of endless war and economic brinkmanship because of these  leaders. Wave your fucking flags and believe you are the exceptional people all you want, but at the end of the day you are hated just  as much as the rich fucks who put you in this spot. Your pitiful hate will not save you. In fact the more you push against inevitability the faster your demise will be.

It is written somewhere that you cannot fight an idea, unless your idea is better. The american idea is not something people want and for this america will fade into the dustbin of history. There may not be a better idea, but there are a lot of ideas that believe america is not the future.

America is capitalism and its time has come and it is time it is gone.

Hording riches for its own sake is not conducive to growth in the long run unless your world depends upon quarterly reports.



I held him in my arms and cried,
Today, a part of me died,
Love; it breaks my heart.

We had the best of us,
For each other,
I held him in my arms and cried.